Teen Mom.

Do they glamorize the subject? why is all these girls getting prego?
As i was watching teen mom tonight i could not help but to cry. The Relationship problems are ridiculous. So much drama and relationship problems. I feel so bad for these girls. they get treated like crap by there baby daddys. Why is this so popular??
I am not goin to lie. I think they do Glamorize it. I love little kids but i have enough sense as too not get pregnant yet. i honestly believe it would tear mine and ryans relationship apart. if that stuff ever happened to me.

The Ugly Truths of a Bachelor Party..

So i have two months and a week and im a married woman!
im so excited about this. there is just one thing that i am dreding more than anything in this world.
THE BACHLEOR PARTY!

I know ryan would never do anything to hurt me or hurt our relationship.
but some of his friends are a little on the wild side. Doby swears up and down they are goin to flordia to a strip club. I dont like this idea. and i told ryan that. Ryan personally dont want to go he even told me. Im just confused. i dont want to tell him no because i dont want his friends to make fun of him and i dont want to sound like his mother heaven forbid. Some facts i herd about these so called partys.
Fact number 1: Most of these types of parties allows sexual behaviors (towards your soon to be spouse) happen. Personally i dont want any girl dancing all of over him. thats my job only!

Fact number two: As i was reading a bachelor check off list for these partys there are things on this check list that disturbed me. Number 1 on the check of list states "let me see your *bleep* one last time im gettin ready to be a married me.
number 2 on the check off list states "lets hook up in the bathroom" this is the last time im goin to be single. Im sorry but if any of you soon to be men have to participate in this activity and go to a strip club you are pathetic and not mature enough to be getting married. THis just shows that your not ready to get married. he is not ready to be a christian husband. If a guy is a one woman man then he will fight to stay pure with his wife. thats how i look at things. i think its really sad that the guy that thinks he is planning his bachelor party is a christian. his soon to be fiance is a christian. but when he goes to work he brags to everyone he watchs porn and is goin to buy ryan lap dances at these strip clubs. Im sorry but if i find out he went to a strip club i will cry. i will be so upset thinking lord where did i go wrong?
i dont know if i should talk to doby personally or beg and pleed to ryan that i dont want him to go.
whats a girl to do?
thats easy
Put it in Gods Hands.
XoXo
Carrie

i will conquor with love and i will never give in.

Honestly. ppl are so two faced these days.
i was having an awsome day until i was told by someone that jamie should stop hanging out with me ryan and zack. simply cause someone thinks zack is a bad influence. ummm exscuse me but who are you to judge my brother. honestly i think he is the best person ever and i think very highly of him he is a stronger person then i am.. and apparently im a bad influence too. and ryan as well. you know i dont care if you talk about me. talk about me all day long cause at the end of the day im still gonna be the better person..i have a full time job as a cna. im getting married. decided to wait to have sex until after im married.decided to wait to move in with ryan until after im married and takin classes to be an emt/.. go ahead talk about me some more. . but when you start talking about my fiance and my brother. thats where we get personal. you dont even know ryan either. so why are u talkin about him. he is the best thing that has ever happend to me. he is a loving christian man just like my mom would have wanted. i have just come to the conclusion that ppl that have the balls to judge are just wanting to make them selves feel better.. i have so much to say to these ppl that have bein freakin out that jamie is breaking out of her shell. sayin shes changed and blah blah blah. well heres some advice. take a step back look at yourself in the mirror and poin out some of your flaws. are you really any better are you truely gonna freak out like we did in highschool just because someone gets jealous....mmmmkkkk

i wish that we could always stay 19 and crazy.

This weekend was fun although i had to work.
Friday--Ryan came down with zack got to spend all day with them and my jamie lynn until we had to take her home :( then i was sad. We went to the fire dept and learned all about the fire trucks. Im so glad ryan and zack enjoyed it while me and jamie twiddled our thumbs and wondered around Bored as junk. lol but we still managed to make the best out of it. Ryan made a new friend down here in good ol morganton. his name is hal. he is pretty cool. For my Valentines day gift... Ryan took me out to eat at Carabas Friday night( we celebrated early cause i had to work) and he is taking me to build a bear monday. :) so excited because i have never done this before and i have always wanted to. we were goin to do it friday but by the time i got to the mall it was closed. soooo. i think i will make a bride bear. hehehehe how cute would that be. and if i cant i will prob make either a firefighter or paramedic or or maybe even a hannah montana lol. im such a kid. I also bought an ipod nano :) pretty excited.
Sat--woke up and hung out with jamie zack an ryan again. didnt do much of anything. cause i had to work . from like 3-11. i love second shift. its awsome. i feel so much more rested. I came home later that night with a massive head ache, and throwing up. it was pretty nasty. then jamie Got home and got yelled which made me really sad. i like cried about it. its crazy. shes like my sister i just dont want her to get into trouble.
Sunday-- went to church with my love and my brother zack. Great message as always. i felt kinda sick. but for some odd and off reason i have been sick with bad chest pains and wanting to throw up. zack thinks i need to go to the doctor. but whoo knows.
So its monday morning at like 1:30 and im listeng to my ipod and watching how to lose a guy in ten days lol. gotta love that multi task. OHHHHH and almost forgot. ryans talkin about moving up here in may. I am so excited and i even bought tubberware!!!! its awsome it came in today and im sooooo excted about that too. i miss and love my boo bear.

Also bought the love dare and me and ryan has been doin that togather i love it.
Goodnight to all
LOVE ALWAYS <3
Carrie Lee (soon to be) Long.

Not Gonna Let Them Get Me Down.

Have you ever had that one person that ur related to by marriage you just dont like. They Cause Non stop drama and you thank God every day that they are not tech. related to you.
Well im Currently Goin through this little problem. Today i logged onto the lovely facebook checkin to see if i had any comments. As i skimmed the page i noticed that ryan had several comments so i began to read them. most of them from jamie lynn glad to see shes doin good funny as ever. then i keep scrolling to find that his aunt ( that i may mention lives with a bunch of hairless dogs) commented saying if i were you i would really re think and i mean re think on gettin married. This bothered me alittle bit. I proceded to then call ryan and tell him what was goin on he was furious so he wrote her back sayin that he was very sure he wanted to marry me and that she should never write stuff like that again on FB. Which im Glad he done that but i thinkg in the long run its gonna cause Problems.
On another note Zack is honestly Gettin on my nerves with his little thing.
He called ryan today and was like hey lets go out to eat and when ryan called back an hour later zack was in the movies. i mean why even bother to as someone to go out and chill if your gonna blow them off. oh but of course he will be here friday. Yipee.(note that that was sarcasm.) People are just gettin on my nerves i honestly need a vacation.

work work all week long punchin that clock dust till dawn.

ok so i got my work schedule last night.
so your thinkin well this should be good since im getting moved to second shift.
WRONG! they have me working second and third shift all this month. plus on top of that a 10 day stretch. honestly how in the love of pete am i suppose to be able to do this. and plus on top of that im working on the skilled unit all week so i will prob come home and sleep all day this week. luckily i have this weekend off. i just dont understand why my schedule has to be like this. its absolutely ridiculous. who in there right mind can do this hmm?? sure posidon and zeus maybe but not carrie. i reallyy need prayer that management will work with me to get this figured out.
UPDATE ON THE BROTHER:
Talked to him last night he was goin to call me back but my break was over. he is comin down monday. pretty excited... his arm and leg is still hurting him pretty bad. he is goin back to see if it is. that night in the alamance regional hospital drove me nuts. they wouldnt let me or ryan go back there adn check on him to see if he was ok but whatever. i pitched a fit. it was ridiculous.
today is rainy so im goin to bed now. i hope everyone has a lovely day!

yay tonight i get to go to work woot!!!! hahah yea right. today i did nothing. havent herd from my brother all day gee image that. talked to him about noon today when i woke up all i got was did u sleep good? and i will talk to ya later. but then again he was busy on the farm. got to the point i dont really care hahaha.
i lost my engagement ring today but luckily i found it!!i was scared to death i started bawling!
talk to ryan for a little bit today not very long. and im gettin ill with the fact he aint answering his phone. i wonder whats in store for me tonight. hopefully it will be good. ever since my passin out episode sat i have this really bad ache and almost frequent dizzy spells i dont know whats up with that.
who knows.